7 years ago today, I came home from school to the most devastating news that my dad committed suicide (more on that moment here). Some days, I look back and have no idea how it’s been 7 years and how I’ve manage to make it so far since then. Other days, it feels like it was yesterday and I still cry myself to sleep (not baby tears, like bawling my eye out because it still hurts so bad). I didn’t have the best relationship with my dad. He wasn’t my best friend or the most incredible role model a daughter could hope for. But, he was still my dad and I loved him with my entire heart. He tried to teach me about things like money, how people think, and how the world works and I was too naive to listen. Now I’d give anything to replay those conversations and to
Raising awareness for suicide prevention will always be the cause that is the nearest and dearest to my heart. After losing my father to suicide six years ago, I’ve found that raising awareness for this heartbreaking, yet completely preventable issue, is the one thing that successfully helps me manage that fact he’s gone. The best memories I have with my dad are from the holidays, which always makes this time of year bitter sweet for me. So, to create light out of the darkness, I’ve teamed up with the most amazing shopping app, Mavatar (it will seriously change your life), for a special #CartForCause. My “Shine Bright” collection is filled with stunning, glittery pieces for all your holiday party and New Year’s Eve celebration needs. Take a look and shop knowing that you’re supporting a cause that needs as much attention as possible. All proceeds from this cart will benefit the American Foundation for
If you’re looking for answers, I’m sorry I don’t have them… When you lose a parent, a part of you goes with them. After all, they are literally half the reason that you are alive. Yesterday marked six years since I lost my dad to suicide. It still hurts just as bad as the day he was gone. I have two younger sisters that my mom adopted as a single mother. Some days, I am so envious of them because I think to myself that it would be so much easier if I just didn’t have a father in my life to begin with. I didn’t have a great relationship with my dad. He has problems with alcoholism, a cunning way of manipulating anyone around him, was overly adamant about turning me into a professional golfer (seriously), and I had Cruella de Vil as a step mother. None the less, he
One man saved his life, and now Jonny, who has schizoaffective disorder, is working to save lives too. On January 14th, 2008, Jonny Benjamin went to the Waterloo Bridge in London and walked towards the precipitous edge, ready to jump to his death. That all changed when a passerby saw Jonny, approached him, and calmly encouraged him not to jump. That man saved Jonny’s life. When Jonny stepped closer to safety, the police quickly whisked him away and he never got the chance to thank the kind stranger. Six years later, Jonny set out to find the man who saved him. With support from UK-based organization Rethink Mental Illness, Jonny launched the Find Mike campaign. The campaign quickly became viral across social media, and the hashtag #FindMike blazed across Twitter. It wasn’t long before Jonny found ‘Mike,’ otherwise known as Neil Laybourn. The Finding Mike documentary about Jonny’s story was
I’m sure you’re probably thinking ‘Suicide is a terrible title to give to a blog post.’ In correlation with my project, La Nuit Noire, a ball to raise suicide awareness and prevention, I am going to start incorporating stories of suicide into my regular fashion, beauty, lifestyle, and pr content. I know, it’s a little different, but necessary… Since publicly announcing La Nuit Noire just a few short weeks ago, I have been absolutely blown away by the number of people who have opened up to me about their stories encountering suicide. Whether attempting suicide themselves, struggling with suicidal thoughts, or losing a loved one to suicide, so many people are affected and yet, it takes something powerful for people to open up about it.